“Gatekeeper”

Confused, disappointed, and powerless a feeling that I know all too well. However, a feeling like this can evoke a new challenge, one that makes you question if everything was real or just a figment of your imagination. Did you make sure that you said that... I sai- but how was it said? When your body reacts before your mind, you start to lose your sense of reality. Caught in a sensational feeling and internal battle of emotions. How can you classify that one night, it didn’t feel right, you did not enjoy it so why does it feel like you deserve it? Lie there sleep and hear their breathing while yours get caught in your sleep and the room starts to get hot. Try not to move so they will not feel the need to wake up what is below, but somehow the fake snores and heavy breathing did a lot more. Why do you like “the dead bodies,” is the separation in-between not enough, or maybe I should have been stronger. “Oh, I'm the gatekeeper, spread your legs, open up, you could be famous, if you come up anywhere else, I'll erase you.”